TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT ALL ALONE...

I am having this super duper weird feeling na pagka lonely and everything...ewan, it's just that na nafeel ko parang nagiiba pala ang mga tao sa paligid ko. Tapos I'm feeling na kakaiba na rin yung mga closest friends ko....what I feel dati parang ako lagi yung naiipit **wala akong pinatatamaan na kahit na sino ha.** Well, that's only my opinion, freedom of speech!...Haha. Well, katulad nalang nila Basia and ni Rodney, ang gulo gulo nila, parang I'm feeling na I can't even express myself kay Bash, and she would just feel such a great discomfort. Hindi ko rin naman masabi kay Rodney, we're not that close, yah know. First and for most, tinutulungan ko sila to make their relationship better, tinutulungan ko sila to know each other, and yet nafeel ko na parang I'm regretful na all the things I've done before. Nahihirapan ako dahil ako yung naiipit sa kanilang dalawa. I'm thankful na nandiyan palagi sina Allison and Karlene to help me up. I'm always taking the opportunity and leaving all my past behind. But then, parang nangyayari nanaman yung nangyari sakin sa Uno, they can't understand the true meaning of living yourslef and being true to yourself. Nahihirapan ako makisama sa mga taong dinadowngrade ako ng sobra sobra. First impression really lasts, people of this institution is such close-minded and walking through the midst of darkness. I could have just take it and leave it all alone....=)..meditating as I always do!

TWO DAY, FUN DAY, HAPPY DAY!

September 5, 2009, the day had come to compete to the Milo LITTLE Olympics, the name itself for me was very very wrong, Little?..No, Senior to be accurate..My events in that olympics were all SPRINTING...and the worse, I'm the only one in the HIGH SCHOOL division. The most funny thing was this, the first event was 400 m dash, and I almost lost my soul in running trying to catch up with those giants! Sad to say, I was really the last to finish, but its okay really, no problem at all. "Okay lang yan!!!", my coach said. I was relieved. After the 400m was the 100m dash. The 100m dash was a total disaster, I ran with elementary children, QUARTER of my size! For me it was nothing but a simple game, and yet I almost brought home a medal! Well, I actually raced in the elementary level which is obviously not for me...Since I don't want our school's reputation to be ruined because of a single 100m dash, I told the announcer and the coordinators that i ran the wrong level, and praise God, they said, "Sus! Okay lang yun!" but then so many things to tell what happened those past two days, and yet I really experienced what the meaning of the word "DETERMINATION". That is the only word I put in my mind when I was running. We all learned from our mistakes and achievements and of course, It's just for fun and experience! Well, the newcomer's meet would be coming up NEXT!..sweet nibblets!...and my sweet revenge would be coming its way...=))

NOT A GOOD FRIEND, YEAH MANY OF THEM...

Okay..I woke up with a very, very good start, but then when I reached the store, Kevin talked to me via the Messenger, and yet he told me that there would be a check up around 11:30 in the morning, I rushed to school from Quiapo and reached the computer shop of Karlene about 10:30. I first practiced for the Prose Interpretation **where I didn't do anything**...and went back to check on my other teammates, there one by one we arrived until **she** was the last one, last one to arrive and the last one to ride the van! FATTY SHARKS! We were all squishing ourselves in that van and it was all okay..=) Halfway there, this **she** and I were still okay but seemingly she looked irritated when she was taking and asked us if we had ate lunch, I was shocked and told myslef, "WHAT HAVE I DONE TO HER?" That scenario continued until the time in the clinic, riding our way back to school and until the General Training in Rizal...My patience rose to its highest point and I just observed her actions, I asked some of my teammates and they told me that it was because of the hospital thing..RECALL: The doctor finally came in and asked for our waivers, **she** put her waiver first and I put the rest on top, then my bestfriend was the first in line and she was the first to be checked, then that started her enviousness....I again told myself after hearing all these stuff, "WHO THE HECK in this world would be angry and just backstab her friends because of a SINGLE PAPER!?" I told my best that I would tolerate such actions but if this **she** would overpass, let's see what would happen next to her...I never knew that she could do that to after all those times we spent helping her to be close with **her guy**, even though that she backstabs me over the fences, that would be fine...BECAUSE REMEMBER: SHE WAS BACKSTABBED A MILLION THE TIMES SHE BACKSTABBED ME...whatever happens, God is in control...

Track and Field is the best!

Yesterday, training was truly a great great terror...my butt hurt, my legs softened, my arms curled and everything!...I really didn't know that would be the kind of training we're going to! JUST COMPARABLE TO HELL!..its hot, its terrifying and all those stuffs! I'm just super overjoyed when I knew that I would compete in the Milo Olympics...never expected!The Newcomer's Meet is also coming its way..I'm very excited and somehow nervous, haha...The distribution of cards are also coming its way...I'm somehow nervous and confident that I would pass the subjects..just a little in Chemistry and Geometry..=)..I just hope that this won't stop me in training for the TEAM...my parents told me that IF I WOULD ONLY HAVE ONE FAILING GRADE in the card, STOP TRACK & FIELD!..That pressures me a lot...that's why I'm studying very hard this second grading...so they will say...GO TRACK & FIELD!...hahaha..=) I just can let it go, it seemed to be a part of my life, it's just very soothing in the mind knowing that I would train for God, for the school and for my family and of course for myself...=))

What if?

Well, first day of school, June 15, 2009, when the start of that week entered, I didn't feel any nervousness, but I started to feel excitement when I'm about to enter the newly opened High School Building, and aböut to meet my new classmates, of course, I miss my öld classmates, but that's life...haha, people in your life change a bit, now our new adviser cäme entering our classmates, and whew! She's beautiful naman but sort of mataray....haha, one of my classmate even cried! I thought that from that day, another challenge has set foot in this school year! What if she'll be my hatest teacher ,please?!NO!

Age doesn't matter...=|

Hay..yesterday was a total disaster, I never knew na magiging ganun yung reaction ng mom ko...I never thought na I would also react that way...that's because I just bursted out of anger. I know that answering back someone elder than you is sort of disrestpectful, but deep inside if you'll put yourself into the situation..really, age doesn't matter. Many years tinatago ko lang lahat ng sakit and hardships na naririnig, nararamdaman, nakikita mula sa parents ko..mostly to my mom. I never wanted to be an orphan. you know...who in the world naman?! I just did that because I already felt ashamed of myself, in those times, I brought good grades, honors...she'll just tuck it in the album and go..I also know that in this world, mothers have different strateges of their "pagkananay..", well, I think this is really the will of God to happen....why?..well...LONG STORY...='(